I have grown up to be two people. The one you see on the surface and the personality that lies within. The person you see on the surface is usually happy, positive and energetic. She carries herself with feigned confidence and smiles a lot because people respond well to that. She laughs freely and knows how to compliment someone on something that she knows will make them feel good. She also means everything she says and doesn't have difficulty making new friends.

The person on the inside is observant, calculating and manipulative. She protects her insecurities and hides them. She is obsessive, compulsive and paranoid. She judges people by how they treat others and not just herself. She pays more attention to how a person talks and their body language as opposed to what they might actually be saying. Sometimes she makes bad judgement calls because she ignores the cues she picks up on and gives people the benefit of the doubt. She should know better but she doesn't and she keeps people from getting too close because she has trust issues.

Both are seeking therapy.